I have a Dream

It doesn't seem like that big of a dream. It is an important dream though. I dream of not being alone. I dream of a man who worships me for the Goddess I am. He loves the fact that I am a witch. He thinks there is no way I could get any better. I want a man who values my strength and courage. I want a man who doesn't make empty promises to me but just is. He should be dependable and kind. He should be attentive and there when I need him. He should have his own life so we have time apart. I do not want to be consumed by him. I just want to be loved by him.

Now being that I am a witch I could easily cast a spell to bring this man to my life but I would forever question the validity. I did this once before and it ended so badly I couldn't be with anyone else for about 6 years after.

If I had the opportunity to tick off a list of the qualities I wanted in a man it would sound like a grocery list. And that is a key in casting a spell to have specifics or the universe can and most certainly play it out the way she sees fit. The universe as you know has a sense of humor and will use you as amusement if you leave yourself open to it.

The physical side of Mystery Man X is not as important. However having said that I need to be attracted to him. I want a man who 6 ft tall or more. I prefer bald or dark haired men but could equally be attracted to light hair. I prefer no facial hair or very little. He needs to be in good shape. Muscular with strong chest and arms. A little belly is cute but not too much. And as superficial as it might seem he needs to be white.

The emotional side is very important. He should have above average intelligence and use it to his advantage. He should be successful in his career. He should be single and want a monogamous relationship. He should be Pagan or at the least very Pagan friendly. He should be open minded and not be cruel to anyone or anything. He should be protective of those he loves. He should be dedicated to his family. He should be funny and able to relax when he is home. He should have similar goals as me. He should never be cruel or violent towards a woman or child.

He should love to snuggle but know when I need to be free. He should have faults as well. Leave the wet towel on the bathroom floor. Forget to mow the lawn some weeks. He should understand that the little things he does to let me know he is thinking of me is what will endure him into my heart forever.

I know this is an impossible dream to dream. But isn't that what dreams are for? To imagine having the impossible? There is no way a man of this caliber exists and is straight and would be into me exactly as I am. So for now I will continue to dream.

Which sort of brings me to another topic. Is it ok to love someone and let them fall in love with you if you know things aren't going to progress into your happily ever after? I guess a Mr. Right versus a Mr. Right Now. I love a man. I am not in love with him by any means. And I know he is falling for me. Even though we both agreed to keep it light. I am lonely and want him to stay in my life for now. I also know that he is not my One. Do I back out now before he falls even more or do I stay and let him love me knowing we will never be more?